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Sunday, May 07, 2006

Well, you know how ideas lead to each other. You start thinking of something then you reach to that point in your childhood where something that you have almost forgotten about seems now as a turning point in your life. At first, this seemed a bit silly to me, but after some analysis, I realized that this might have much to do with what I am now.

I've always been fond of barbies as a kid. I remember how I preferred them to all other toys. I still remember my first real barbie! It was a very well-made one with a blond hair that I damaged afterwards by bathing it in the sink.

One day, when I was around 8 years old I guess, my uncle who lived abroad came back, loaded with presents as usual. That day, he brought barbies for all my cousins who were around my age, and also for my sister, but he forgot to get me one. I felt so hurt and left out at the time, but I wouldn't show it to anyone. When someone said: Do you feel bad because you didn't get a barbie? I would go like: Nooo! I hate barbies anyway! Of course this was as far from form truth as you could see, but I couldn't go back on my word. And from that day on, I declared myself a barbie-hater.

From then on, and as far as I can remember, I didn't get any barbie, and I didn't paly with barbies anymore. The lie was very well-faked that I almost believed it myself. Maybe, Maybe this was why I tended to act like a tomboy sometimes, but I wasn't so good at that! I still preferred Lady Rin and Judy Abot over Mawkly and Sasooki!

As I grew up, I almost forgot about this story, and didn't account much for it. It was only an unpleasant memory. But lookig back at it, I can't help but thinking that it could be a reason why, manytimes, I feel myself unworthy of some stuff. It's when I hear a voice inside me saying: "Nah! Forget it, This is for girls!"

Moral of the story: If a little girl says she hates barbies, make sure you know why. Likewise, if a little boy says he hate football, make sure you know why. If you find them looking downcast, make sure you know what's going on even if they denied and tried to look cheerful.

P.S: on the otherhand, if a little girl says she likes football, it's ok as long as she still likes barbies. However, if a little boy says he likes barbies, make sure you send him to military school, even if he still likes football.

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On May, 07, 2006 5:13 PM , Dar
from Jordan said:

Hehehe , 3ajabooni el morals ta3oon el story , bsthat was to crushing , to see everyone has a barbie not u , o ba3dein u say u dont , i gss that would should how strong u r deep inside to get over all those stuff , especially cuz u r a child at that time , imagining a child resisting a barbie , which would seem his heaven is something really strong ! thanks for sharing :)
CheeerZ!

On May, 07, 2006 10:09 PM , Ola
from Jordan said:

Glad you liked the morals dar :D Make sure to carry them into practice :p Yes it was hard in deed, I think I should consider a therapy :( :D Seriously, I think you got the point exactly, for that was the way I saw it and pitied myself as a child about it... but I should say I am proud of that little me :D

On May, 07, 2006 10:15 PM , Iman
from United States said:

Awww! seriously, that was touching! Your sense of integrity as - as a child - is amazing!

By the way, I never liked Barbie. I can't figure out exactly why, but toys in general never appealed to me as a child. Why do you think that is? :p

p.s. I know what to get you next summer :D

On May, 08, 2006 12:10 AM , Ola
from Jordan said:

lol iman :D yeah now you know exactly how to open my old wounds :cry: :p

How come you never liked Barbie?? Don't tell me your nieces don't either!

On May, 08, 2006 1:19 AM , Iman
from United States said:

I meant to say dignity :D ah well same difference :P

I have no idea why! my nieces LOVE barbie...they have a ton of different ones...and a million outfits for each!

On May, 08, 2006 9:36 AM , Ramroom
from United Arab Emirates said:

hehehhehehe Lovely post :) ya 7aram 3anjad I felt so bad for you when he never got you the barbie!!!

I never HAD a barbie.. I always had a bicycle, a football, and other toys that required movements. My mom always had this idea that I was such a tomboy.. it isnt that I hated barbies but they were dummies to me. So all i did was dress, undress, and try make up a story to be having fun.. mmmmmmmm NO ACTION :)

On May, 08, 2006 2:05 PM , Ola
from Jordan said:

Iman: That what I thought:D w ana ba2ool sho dakhal el integrity!

Ramroom: I loved bicycles as well! bta3 kolloh :D

On May, 08, 2006 6:22 PM , Neverland
from Jordan said:

I LOVED your post...I did...and I loved the Moral of the story he he he

On May, 08, 2006 8:18 PM , Ola
from Jordan said:

Thanks neverland :)

On May, 08, 2006 9:50 PM , Fadi K said:

Hi , I dont' like football at all because I almost broke my back at school because of football! I also went to get my Reema (niece) a Barbie this afternoon after I read your post but I was shocked because it costs a lot these days! So I ended up getting her a bunny (soft one) coz she likes to pick them from their ears.. she was happy and I think she’s grateful for your post :)

On May, 08, 2006 10:41 PM , Ola
from Jordan said:

Now that was sweet, Fadi! Make sure she gives the bunny a nice name :) She seemed like a cute little girl: Reema... nice name!

On May, 10, 2006 2:38 PM , Fadi K
from Jordan said:

Ola, unfortunately she's too young to speak (14 months old now) but she knows how to say some words for the time being. Including 3amo (that is me). We called the bunny arnoob till she gives him another name.

On May, 13, 2006 6:07 PM , Nana
from Lebanon said:

I've always loved barbie, and still. I don't really mind having one to play with now. :D

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On May, 16, 2006 5:23 PM , Ola
from Jordan said:

Sure I don't mind!

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